Abbasbeloveddaughter's Revelife

Sunday, July 06, 2008

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 18:21:37 GMT

If my life is surrendered to God, all is well. Let me not grab it back,
as though it were in peril in His hand but would be safer in mine!

Elisabeth Elliot

What would you do if a zombie outbreak occured?

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 00:02:16 GMT

Trust God and stand firm

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Response to another blog

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 17:10:13 GMT

Should we be glad when the Lord takes away? I believe the verse in Job says "The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. The name of the Lord is to be praised." So by default as humans it is okay to not be happy for a little bit, but ultimately He is deserving of our praise because He alone knows that He is doing.

I know that is tough, but that is the very lesson i am in the process of learning. No matter what happens the Lord is to be praised, because He alone is worthy. Whether we like what happened isn't His concern. He is concerned with His glory and our good.

Where were you one year ago today?

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 00:59:08 GMT

I was coming home from Florida, and recovering from the shock of having my engagement broken off

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Thursday, June 19, 2008

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 22:28:54 GMT

“When life caves in, you do not need reasons -- you need comfort. You do not need some answers -- you need someone. And Jesus does not come to us with an explanation -- He comes to us with His presence.”~Bob Benson

Life in some respects feels like it is caving in on me. It is in these times that I don't need the newest trend or someone's advice; I just need God. It is in those times that I most need God to pull me through that I see Him the most. Sadly that should be my reality every day. I should realize my need for Him daily and see Him work in ways that I never thought possible. I should be surprised by the way He chooses to guide and provide for me and stand confidently in the knowledge that He loves me instead of just taking those actions for granted or wishing He would work instead of knowing that as His child God has to take care of me. How God choose to provide may be different than what I would have invisioned, but He will always provide.

I loved this quote from the moment I read it, because it is so true. Many times I don't need answers when ym life caves in. Logically I do have questions and it seems like all i want are answers. "Why is this happening?" or "What am I supposed to do now?" or even "Where is God in this? are frequently questions that enter my head when something that once seemed so perfect spirals out of control, and suddenly I have no idea where to turn or what to do. In this respect I am so glad my God , my Father isn't like man, and that my Savior intimately knows what I am facing. He knows the struggle of being alone, He knows what it means when people disown you or when they don't understand and are critical, and luckily He is the last one who wants to give advice. The Father knows His children so intimately that His advice and counsel iss always well timed, and His adice is only given when His children come to Him and sak for it.

It is also most frequently in those times of wondering that I just want to sit in His presence. I don't want Him to speak, I just want to be held. It is in those times w hen His presence and grace and provision are truly enough for me

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 21:26:04 GMT

Brokenness. Pride. Guilt. Anger. Shame. Fear. These are all feelings I have felt over what many would have thought was the last month, or even the last year, but truth be told I have felt these emotions all within the last week. Breaking old habits and creating new ones is hardest when the very habits you are trying to break surround you daily. I have tw choices: to give up or to become more like Christ in everything that I do and say. I am human, but my Father is perfect, and as long as I am pursuing Him and his will I will be fine. Humility and obedience are choices I will have to make, but in the end I can say it was worth it.

Christ is calling me forward. What that looks like or is supposed to look like I don't know, but I am willing to find out. The first step is to get out of the boat, I sort of did that when I went to college going six hours away, and away from anyone or anything familiar to me to a city called Anderson,Indiana. Then after awhile even that became familiar and mundane. Now that I have come home I find the only thing that is familiar to me is my church and the stability I have there. They love and care for me, but most importantly I am allowed to make mistakes and I can be honest about those mistakes when they are made.

I have found even more stability in my relationship with my heavenly Father. I have had to learn that He can be trusted. Once I learned that, it was as if the floodgates opened up and I began to run to him little by little with whatever I felt I could trust Him with at the time. I have learned day by day what it means not only to walk and live by faith, but ti have a child-like faith as well. To be able to come to God and know without a doubt that He has my best interests at heart is the most freeing feeling in the world. It is my choice whether I will follow what He instructs me to go, but knowing that He has my best interest at heart, why wouldn't I obey Him?

Hmmm, my thoughts

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 19:08:23 GMT

I really hope the Lord will catch me, because I am ready to jump. To jump straight off the place I am right now, and hope that He catches me.

I am called to go, an I am called to serve Him. I have very little support, most harsh is that I don't even have the support of my family. These are people who claim to be His and act like they know what the will of God is. Father, I want to follow You and You alone. If that means that I have to forsake my family them so be it, because I cannot take the hyppcrisy anymore.

God has been calling me ever so sweetly into His presence daily. Somedays I say no, but He still faithfully calls out. So much for being His daughter when I can't even obey Him. UGH!

My heart is being torn out right now. My family isn't born again yet they act as if everything is okay. It isn't they are spiritually dead trying to fake it as alive, and it kills me. I really want to give up. There doesn't seem to be any hope anymore.

Monday, June 09, 2008

Mon, 09 Jun 2008 18:01:28 GMT

Father,

Teach me to love You. Teach me to follow in obedience today. Father thank you for Your adoption, and the Spirt which cries out to You and You alone. Father help me to walk in obedience in everything You have called me to do and to say.

May I be a light, and give me a way to move out. I cannot stand it anymore and this is hurting my witness for You. Conform me to Your image and bring my family to You today.

Amen

Friday, June 06, 2008

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 23:59:25 GMT

I hate excuses. I also hate how in this nation there is an excuse for EVERYTHING! We call things like alcoholism and other addictions diseases and those that deal with them sick when really after talking with these people their participation in these activities are an act of the will. I know I am predisposed to some things that could possibly lead to addiction; that is why I stay as far away from them as possible. I HATE this aspect of American society, in fact I hate most aspects of society.

I am so stressed out right now. I graduated from college on May 10th, and I didn't really get to enjoy the accomplishment. I don't have a liscense and yet my father is talking about me paying car insurance when I get a job. HELLO!! If I cannot drive why pay insurance on a car! I don't get it. He also brought up a bunch of bills that I will pay, and he forgot that obedience to God comes first and foremost. Therefore, the firse 10% in obedience to God goes to my church,then whatever else NEEDS to be paid gets paid, and the rest is stored away for when I have to start paying back my loans. That is how I will deal with that, but on a starting salary of $19,000-$25,000 we shall see how far this goes.

While I have been home I have been okay. Trying to kick bad habits, but doing it in my own strength seems impossible. We shall get there.

Friday, June 06, 2008

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 23:39:21 GMT

Hi everyone! I'm just getting started on Revelife... Drop me a comment if you've got some ideas on what to do first - or just to say, "Hi!" :-)